Democratic Senator Chris Murphy is currently filibustering on the Senate floor about gun control; specifically to get the rest of the Senate to agree that if a person is on a “no fly” list, they shouldn’t be able to buy a gun. He’s been at it for over ten hours now. Senator Cory Booker and some other Senators have joined him to ask questions. It’s so heartening to see. This has been such a horrific week and it’s nice to see the good things that are coming from it. Much more than this needs to be done but paraphrasing what Senator Murphy said, you need to start somewhere. You need to be willing to fail and make mistakes in order to finally get to a success.
I’ve sort of been filibustering lately too. I have been trying to stand up for what I believe to be correct. It hasn’t been popular but I know that I’m moving in the right direction so I need to stop listening to other people’s hesitation. I need to realize that so long as I know I’m honestly trying to do the right thing for the right reasons, there’s no reason to fear. In fact, I just need to trust myself and everyone else around me. “Trust” is the key word lately. TRUST.
The other key word that I need to consider is “simplify”. In a feverish effort to be healthy, relaxed, and creative, I’ve been running myself absolutely ragged. I am just getting over being sick for five days. Five full days of illness will take it out of you. My schedule is completely off. I forgot to pick up more DayQuil today so I’m going to try to go without it. I actually went to CVS today too and still forgot to buy it. I’ll take that as a sign that I don’t need it. I’ll just drink hot tea and suck on cough drops if I am desperate. The one saving grace of this illness is that I did not have a cough. I had a sore throat, a runny nose, a congested chest and nose, body aches, fever and chills, exhaustion, dry mouth, nausea, and headaches but no cough thank god. Tomorrow, I think I’ll even try to get to the gym. I haven’t been getting my Fitbit steps for a week now. I cannae stand it!
Okay, I’m going to go watch Maria Bamford and take my NyQuil. I’ll keep taking the NyQuil as long as my sleeping stays horrible. Every night I’ve been waking up at some obscene hour anywhere in the range of 2-4am dried out like the desert and completely wide awake. I end up guzzling a bunch of water, then I have to go to the bathroom, then I force myself back to sleep. It’s a ridiculous cycle but I’m a slave to it. Maybe tomorrow morning I’ll just force myself to stay awake and go swimming. Pool water is good for a head cold right? G’nite.