Just so you guys know. I apologize for getting so heated earlier, I just can’t stand this constant up and down. I wish we had some security. It’s like as soon as things start to seem up, we’re slapped by something else that comes in the form of a big fat “NO”. This week I’d gotten the foodstamps and GR and then that Desperate Housewives thing came my way (more on that later I swear). Kristyn made decent money in her paycheck and then got paid for writing and then got a little extra for Christmas from work. I got a bunch of job interviews. We got to pay off some bills that we’d been worrying about. We were finally feeling like we were getting back on our feet so we did some laundry (a big deal for us), we grocery shopped, we even went out for potato tacos at this cheap place around the corner (something we never do). And Kristyn FINALLY was able to get a haircut. It’s been almost a year. It seemed like we had some breathing room to enjoy ourselves and maybe a little bit of financial security. And then a big chunk of it is just ripped right out from underneath us. We are going to lose $178 from each month AND the government wants to take the GR money they paid me away too. It’s just too much and maybe not worth the hassle. I feel like saying, “You know what? Just take the money. You win.” Just walk away free and clear. Go home. Shiver in the cold weather. Hug my Grandmas. Start over. IDK. We’ll be okay no matter what happens because we have plans here and we have plans there but we didn’t want to have to go out like this. All is not lost here yet but I might be at the end of my rope with my tolerance of how much more disappointment I can stand out here. But then I think of everything it would take to undo this life and I get angry and forward-moving again. BUT how can we stay here if our families feel responsible for us? We can’t. There’s no way to do this where we feel good about what we are doing. There just are no easy answers. Whatever. I have more writing to do for some other projects. I just wanted to take a second to whine. Maybe I should have a meal. It is 11:34pm and my last meal was at noon. Oh we HAVE meals I am just actually too lazy/busy to make one happen. G’nite fools.
Wait before I go, here are some pictures of yesterday. My interview yesterday was with a company on the Sony Lot (old MGM). I took this picture from the parking garage. It was supposed to be of that building in the distance because it has a huge red and green light up Christmas tree on it but you can’t see it. Those are production trailers in the foreground and Culver City in the background.
This picture is of the Hipster Snowman that was waiting for us outside of the Trader Joe’s in our neighborhood. They are serious with this haha.
Here is some weird gel called “Snott Gorila Gel”. When you open it, it looks like an electric-colored jar of Gorilla Snot. Amaze. And for the low low price of $2.49. (Yes we bought a jar for Kristyn’s hairs.)
On my way home from the interview I was FASCINATED by how much the back of this car looks like a smiley face. When things are going good I see smiley faces in everything. Kristyn used to laugh at me when we lived in NJ because there was a section of street lights that formed a smiley face on the horizon from a certain spot in our town. I always pointed it out because it was so cute to me.
And this flier was in Rudy’s, the haircutting place Kristyn went to. This “Bearracuda” NYE party is basically in our neighborhood. It’s being held at the same place that I went to see He’s My Brother, She’s My Sister. JD Samson of Le Tigre and Men DJ’d there last night too. See THIS is why we love LA! There’s no Bearracuda NYE party in Kearny!!!